Insights -Ashtavakra geeta chapter 2

Pain is indeed important. Turbulent situations are very important. Feeling bad about one self (mind made self feeling bad about itself) is very important.

Saakshi bhaav -
From childhood we have been conditioned to pick and choose. Now the reality dawns upon us that that very picking and choosing has taken us away from our only Self. Picking and choosing is suffering. suffering is in the mind. and unless a choicelessness arises, we will always be identified with the mind.
Practising witnessing (not choosing) is therefore something against our tendencies. It is the de-conditioning that needs to be done in order to re-connect to our own Self. What an irony ! We are connected with everything but Self. Though its all the game of Self itself.
Thats why its said we are nothing but pure love - because unless identification with picking and choosing (not-witnessing) stops, we cannot be our true Self, And once we are not picking and choosing (Witnessing) there is nothing but pure joy and Aho-bhaav in store.
Getting stabilized in our own Self requires alertness, awareness every moment. Not to get identified with the mind and its dirty tricks even for a moment.  Now that's some challenge !!
And then when the witness takes its steering wheel, things are just happening, there is a subtle realisation, the body becomes lighter as if not there. I AM that that is untained, untouched, unwavered, unattached, untouched by greed and jealousy amongst all this.

sukh aur dukh: insights from Sarvasar Upnisad and Japuji Sahib

Sukh bhi wohi deta hai, dukh bhi wohi deta hai. Jab MAIN hai, to sab sukh aur dukh hai, jab MAIN hi nahi, to Dukh kya Sukh kya, kyonki, ye dono wahin hotey hain, jahan MAIN hota hai. Kyonki, mujhe lagta hai aisa hona chahiye- jab aisa ho jaye, to sukh, nahi to dukh. 
Agar sab parmatma hi ka khel hai, (nirankar, onkar) tab sab ek samaan. Jeet bhi uski , maat bhi uski. aasha bhi uski, niraasha bhi uski.

Is Pain important?

Pain is important.
Till the time it hurts when someone says something, ego is still
alive. Its ego that has the capacity to get hurt. Because getting hurt
must have happened because of - i am something else, and this person
says i am not that (how dare he?). So my belief is hurt. Having
beliefs is a 'quality' and 'quality' is that of an object. It means
whatever happened was in the realms of ego only, the object. The
moment apperception happens- perception without a quality, only that
is me. and the moment i say - 'that', its again not me.
So its good to be with difficult (appears to me like -different cult)
people ("difficult" people means people who do not fit into your mind
made beliefs, which is nothing but Ego) because only there can your
ego not survive. Ego will get hurt again and again, and you will get
sick of it. ab aur nahi.
If you remain with lovely conforming people all the time, then ego is
always there, lurking. Whenever a difficult situation happens, it
comes to the limelight. The demons and the devils of me, and demons
and devils again can only be of the ego (my mind made self)..
For the objects to manifest, IT has to be no-thing.. only when IT is
no-thing, can there be things. As they need space to be. On the same
hand, precisely because IT is there, the objects ARE. proof (who needs
a proof?)

The crap there and here ..

There is crap outside,
there is crap inside,
the inside crap creates nothing but the outside crap..
Until I understand and clear up the inside crap,
the outside crap is never going to vanish..
it will remain, in myriad forms, in disguises.. it will lurk behind the most trivial walls,
the moment I accumulate some crap again, it will attack and prevail again..

I vow there by, to WATCH and be awake every moment,
not let the guilt come in, or her cousin, Pride..
never will I collect any crap, or any diamond (a disguise),
and then only,
all the crap will cease to exist..

as, In this moment..